VERILY...

salam guyz..gud morning! (^^,) hehe..hari ni mood stabil..tader nak sedih2 tader nk "hujan2" tader nk tensi2 tader nk sakit2 ati..hari ni my mood absolutely stabil..alhamdulillah..dariNya datang segala kesulitan buat menguji prestasi sabar..pasti DIA jugak yg akan menghilangkan..

semalam dh berlalu lagi satu paper. dgn mata yg sgt blues, otak yg agak blur, perut yg tak berisi dan hati yg tak berasa aku jejak jgk exam hall tu. of coz la,xkan nk absent lak. cari pasal la namenya. aku cuma simpan tenaga cukup2 utk jwb paper histo selama 2 jam tu je..kalo ade baki sikit pon bole la tahan utk aku sampai rumah dgn selamat lps jwb exam..so aku kena save every kcal of energy yg ada utk keep on striving. mmg parah sungguh. silap2 bole rebah sejurus slps noktah terakhir exam sheet..hehe. fortunately,aku siap jwb dlm ms sejam 40minit. kira ada 20 minit lg la b4 the exam end. malas nk byk songeh,aku grab sume stationaries,tolak kusi n melangkah kuar ala2 zombie bejalan. ermm..aku dengar gak la sok sek subjectmate aku ms tu. mesti dorang fikir camni.."whoaa,terernye siap awal"..tak pon.."waaa,bestnya dia"..ade gak yg.."erm,belagak"..whatever la guyz,janji aku jwb sume soklan tu x pakai tiru pon. english aku tunggang tebalik aku tak kisah,aku tahu lecturer paham. kalo yg kata aku terer tu,ameen..dorg tatau pon mende yg aku tulis. yg kata best tu,no komen..tggu result la nnt,huhuhu..ke aku je pasan org nk ckp cmtuh? huhu,maaf ye guyz..tersu'uzzon lak,hihi..smpi je rumah,mmg tggl sikiiiiiitttt je lg energy. dh ade warning suh topup. tp taper,aku gerak jgk utk mengutamakan yg utama. ape tuh? hehe..mamam lorrr.

pas makan megi goreng yg mmg terasa sedap tahap 5 star tu (sbb tgah kebulur) aku rase tenaga aku dh topup beberapa peratus. kire bole la nk "dating" jap. so,aku bukak lappy, cek emel n chat jap ngn member. lepas beberape minit,aku mintak diri..alam terase dh tak berputar pada paksi. akhirnya aku tepaksa akur pd tuntutan jasad yg mahu haknya ditunaikan. cewah..hehe..paham2 la ye..

ermm..sebenarnye nk ckp kt cni..verily after each difficulty there is a relief..inna ma'al 'usri yusraa..cek surah al-Insyirah ayt 5. ayat penawar tu. kita kena sentiasa percaya janji Allah yg satu ni. DIA tak bagi susah kt kita sekadar sia2. kena yakin segala yg berlaku ade blessing in disguise..silver lining..kalau bukn skrg,myb someday..soon..all we have to do is "sabar dan solat" means,doa..seketika aku rase hilang kekuatan sgt dgn ujian yg DIA bagi. sampai kdg tertanya2,knpa dlm ramai2 pnduduk dunia,mslh ni kena kt aku jgk? astaghfirullah..teruk btol fikiran..i noe i have to keep on going no matter what. DIA dh permudahkan segala urusan aku, even usaha yg aku curah tak la sebesar mane. Ya ALLAH..sayangnye kat hambaMu yg sorang ni. Dia Maha Penyayang..yup..Dia Maha Penyayang..

"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan;
"Kami telah beriman," sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya
kami telah menguji org2 yg sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah
mengetahui org2 yg benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui org2 yg dusta."
-Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3

"Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan
mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat
kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk"
-Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45

the UNKNOWN..blurrr

salam guyz..hari ni btol2 tak rase nk story ape2..byk je idea dlm kpla tp jejari ni yg dh x larat nk typing. esok ade paper..(HISTORIOGRAPHY WRITING IN ISLAM)..n guess what? haven't finish my reading yet..(not even sure if i ever started)..blur abes otak ni..Lord,plz..help me up..(!_!)

time2 camnila segala mcm perasaan datang..ini mase jgk la segala bagai penyakit menyerang. serangan 4 penjuru lak tuh. adoii..wish i cud take out my heart and put it aside around 3 hours more less..shud be enuf to go thru at least 1 chap. pagi esok dah la paper pukul 8.30..nk stay up pon mmg dh di luar kemampuan..totally mengharapkn pengetahuan sedia ade & nusrah Allah je buat mnjawab esok. huh..as if i deserve the nusrah..but i need it so bad..=(

guyz,doakan utk paper esok..kalo x sempat pon tolg doakan spya tak blur camni for my last paper this friday.

"Ya Allah..jgn bebankan hambaMu ini dengan apa yg aku tak mampu nk pikul..jgn biarkan aku sorang2 dlm perjalanan dunia yg menipu ni..jgn palingkan aku dari rahmat dn kasih sayangMu..tolong ya Allah..aku mohon sgt2.."

p/s: what is going on wif me!!! arrgghh!!!

THE ROAD NOT TAKEN- robert frost

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

ermm..remember this poem? we all study ms form5. one of my fav poem dlm byk2 yg ada kt literature textbook for SPM tu. ms cuba nk faham moral value poem ni, i started to wonder...which road shud i take in life? if i choose this one then what is it suppose to be? and if i choose the other wud it be better or worse? what wud my life be for another 5 to 10 years ahead?? huarrgghh...(psl ni la kot aku start migrain) hehe...

life is all about risk..about making choice and decision..x semestinya salah, tp x semua jgk betul..hidup akn terus bejalan, it is a matter of time after all..lambat laun kena buat pilihan jgk..dan akhirnya...

HERE I AM. long after i made my own path of life. i'm taking the road that i'm suppose to take (at least i did chose..) be the person like no other cud ever think of being..hehe, aku rasa la..x sape bole nafikan dlm hidup ni byk sgt bnd kita nk jadik. dn dlm proses tu kita akn cuba relatekn dgn pilihan kita ms mula2 dulu.."kalaula aku pilih yg ni dulu...mst dpt jadi camni dah"..

nope! dun ever teach urself to regret what's past (i did it once,tp dh benti..huhu) sbb come hell of high water sedetik pon kita xkan dpt ulang ape yg dh berlaku. dlm citer yg time wrap wujud tu lain la..only i noe "what's done is done"..go forward..and start to make THE ROAD THAT TAKEN worth a lifetime!

and that has made all the difference... (^^,)